and i thought stuff wasn't happening for me today.
first the centipede.
then, i put my contacts on this afternoon and my left eye pricked. it pricked the last time i put them on too, and i had to fix them at the bus station washroom...big fiasco there with runny make up etc. i'm not quite sure whether you're supposed to put on eye make up first or your contacts first. i don't even wear any makeup, but the reason i got contacts was so i could wear more eye makeup when i do. and it's such a pain.
anyway, at least i was able to wear them all night on saturday. after i put it on today, it bothered me so much, i decided to take it out and put it on again. and then i discovered that there was a rip in it! i wore it with the rip last time?! so i had to throw away a perfectly good pair of contacts. well, hmm, true, they weren't perfectly good cuz at some point i'd ripped them (i don't know how that could have happened because this was only the second time i was putting on the pair). it hurt my chest to think of the money going down the drain.
and dr. d calls me by another name in an email sent to my entire advisory committee.
but i saw dr. d today and it seemed like he was having a worse day. he'd apparently left a $2000 tip, lost his wedding ring, and got my name wrong (he actually came over after a seminar to apologize, which i thought was nice of him) all in a matter of hours. i felt bad for the poor guy, he seemed a little distressed. i'm sure his wife isn't going to be happy with him.
well, to top it all off, i went to the gym after a week and it was closed.
grossssssssssssssssssssssss!
i wake up this morning, go to the bathroom, come back and am thinking about making my bed when i notice something on the wall beside my bed, almost right above the headboard. and it's one of these creepy looking things. centipedes, are they? i killed it, but i now feel like there's something on me and i'm itchy all over my body. it's some kind of visual allergy...or paranoia.
i guess the bugs are happily running abour cuz it's spring. go run about happily outside, bug. not in my room. how did u get in my room?! and the fact that there have been a couple of spiders and now this crazy looking thing, i feel like there are more, or more on their way. they could be anywhere. they could be everywhere.
oh man i'm getting increasingly more itchy...
my lovely feet
i've always complained about walking...for as long as i can remember anyway. but nowadays i take walks that take me nowhere but bring me right back to the house eventually. recreational walks. not something that was in my vocabulary. something's changing. oh yeah, it's the weather. and also that i feel like i need to get some exercise everyday now that i don't really have time to go to the gym so far this week. and a walk feels good. really good. even though somehow i just walked 15 minutes away from the house and then came back in a little over ten via a route i haven't been along before, by the river. did i mention that it's a beeeeaaaaauuuutiful day? a day to be happy about. i love those.
anyway, my real point abt mentioning the walk was that i need shoes. like proper walking shoes. it's going to be summer soon and i'll be doing a lot more walking i think. for which you need proper shoes. as much as i love my sneakeresque aldo shoes that i bought last summer (they're all scuffed from overuse and i can't find any of my shoe polishes since i moved), i miss the new balances that i lost. and i think it's time to get a new pair. i can't wear my cross trainers outside cuz i use them for gym. this is a perfectly good excuse to get a new pair of running shoes. yes, it'll mean that it's going to be yet another tough month on the visa (i'm sure the visa ppl are laughing right now...but they don't realise that i'm one of those ppl who pays off their visa bill every month), but i deserve it. especially after the fabulous job i did on my chapter-3 today. it's not done, but i achieved my 10 double-spaced pages goal (which i was hoping would be the entire chapter, actually). one whole section still left, and also the intro and conclusion, but that's for tomorrow cuz i hit the limit about 6 hours into writing. a reward is in order.
so i was watching the mom show today on the life network and they were talking about helping your kids with homework. i know, i know...i don't have any kids, and by the time i have them and have to help them with their homework, if ever, i'll not even remember this show. but it freaked me out a little. i'm going to have to do homework when i'm done with all my own education?! nooooooooooooooooooooooo!!! does it never end???
i'm sure that's not the worst it gets with kids.
that's all i gotta do today.
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why do i torture myself so? if i get it done, it'll be done, and then i can have a happy weekend.
of all the excuses in the world...
strange, eh, that i can use the 'writer's block' excuse when it comes to the 3rd chapter draft of my thesis and yet i have no qualms about writing in my blog? well, honestly, i don't really have to think about what i'm putting down in my blog as i have to think about what i put down in my chapters, right? at least most of the time i'm suppose to think about what i put down. the chapter's due friday and all i have so far on late wednesday night is a skeleton, not even a proper outline. why am i here again?!
i was sitting here minding my own business, chatting on msn, and all of a sudden i feel a slight tickling up my arm, and it was a tiny little spider crawling up towards my shoulder! it was a baby one i think, which makes me wonder that there must be more around in my room. earlier today M's bf (i should say fiance, but i don't want to) killed a big black one earlier today. if L were reading this i'm sure i could feel her shudder right about now.
E, i will write your essay if u write my entire thesis...it'll probably be more interesting.
what do i do with this?
i have a pile of papers and books growing on my desk that's almost as high as my monitor, and it isn't a big desk that i've got (it came with the room...i personally prefer huge desks). so there's my monitor and a number of articles and books that i need as i write bits of my thesis everyday on top of my desk. and keys. and pens. my hand cream which is almost done. my watch and a claw clip. a phonecard. a takeout menu from Wok's Taste. and also a container i used to put spices in which has been sitting on my desk for over a week because i didn't get around to washing it and prepping it for the next bag of spice. i can't get rid of any of the papers or try to organize it because i use them so often. well, when i write anyway. it's starting to get to me, though, because i usually am better at working when my desk is neat. however, looks like that'll not happen over the next few months so i gotta learn to live with it. or just leave the house when i can't deal with it anymore.
so after the whole engagement news, and seeing M's ring (which is kind of a small version of the middle one in the picture of the entry abt the engagement), i couldn't help but do a little browsing of my own for engagement rings. it's a way of drowning my sorrows in something i believe will not happen for me. not in the near future anyway. plus b'deshis don't get engaged the fairy tale way that canadians or other westerners do. at times like this, the internet can be your best friend. well, the internet can be your best friend most times. except those times that you get carpal tunnel. and that's really the keyboard's fault.
i like this ring that u see above. i really like it. like really really. it's a tiffany one. i like a lot of rings from tiffany actually. birks has some great stuff too. i think i remember that E wants one from birks.
this tiffany setting solitaire is also fabulous. however, i don't know what i would love as an engagement ring. anything like either of these two would be fantastic of course. maybe someday i can buy one for myself. if i can afford it, why do i need a guy to get me one? so what if it's called an 'engagement ring'? i guess i'm just a big diamond person. the bf thinks it's all overrated. so u can imagine where i'm headed. he, of course, has no idea that i'm even looking at rings, even if it is for my own pleasure, nothing more, nothing less. he doesn't visit the blog often and maybe he won't find out.
maybe i'll walk to the grocery store today...seems like a nice day out.
hmm, so that's what it was...
apparently, loss of appetite is a sign of 'overtraining'. so are frequent headaches, something i've been having for a little under a week. i guess all the soreness is also a good sign that should have told me that i should take a break. the weird dragonfly-in-ear symptom must also somehow be related. and if u have overtraing symptoms, u're supposed to take a week off exercising. i don't really want to take a week off because i have a feeling i'll never go back. so i have to figure something out. i guess this whole exercise thing is getting a bit dull. but i can't help it. really, i can't. the bf gave me an 'i can't help it' excuse abt something he did and i didn't buy it cuz i was really annoyed with him. i'm using the same reason (it's not an excuse in my case, of course :p), but i'm justified.
gotta do everything in moderation, eh?
so they did it!
i came back home today and learnt from Em (the Canadian housemate) that M (the Russian housemate) got engaged over the weekend!! i was (surprisingly) happy about the news...we'd just talked about the whole boyfriends-don't-understand-nuthin last week and this week she's engaged and getting married in june! i haven't actually seen M yet or her bf who's still around this week (he lives in the US), but i'm sure they're both excited about it. makes me wonder how she played her cards, and why, in four years, i've played them all wrong. apparently her ring's extremely beautiful, too.
in the last year or so, one of my jaan's friends got engaged, my cousin and my friend got engaged, and now M's engaged...and soon the rest of the world will be engaged. but me.
so i also wonder whether i should be exploring the other fish in the sea.
oh how much can it hurt!?
so, saturday night was more than i'd actually hoped to get out of going out. lots and lots and looooooooooooots of dancing, but also means that i over-exerted myself a little. saturday was the 7th day in a row to the gym, and man i was feeling the pain from six days of crunches. 6 days of crunches mean that your sides and lower tummy are so sore that you can't even get half of your regular number of crunches in. but i did all, as painful as it was. if i'd known that i'd stay out so long dancing, then maybe i would have taken it a little easy at the gym.
sunday, as a result was a day to just sleep and sleep and sleep and yet wake up with super sore calves. my knees hurt. my butt hurt. even my fingers hurt, which i don't quite know why. i don't use my fingers to dance!! my calves still hurt a little. but this all means that my muscles are working and my fat is turning into muscles, right? RIGHT?
no working out yesterday, not even a walk. i think today i might take a walk just to keep the exercise regime up, but no gym for sure. it was all worth the pain...i had a blast. i didn't realise how much i missed dancing the whole time that i wasn't going out.
need to do this once a month at least!
bored outta my mind
and honestly, that's where i could end this blog, just with the subject. i've been sitting at this computer in the dept lab for over an hour for really no reason. i've checked my email (all three/four accounts that i use) about 3 times each or more, and i've chatted on msn for no particular reason either. well, i guess most of the time that u're chatting on msn, u don't have any particular reason. but the email thing is probably more of a problem...i'm obsessive compulsive about checking my email. i don't fail to pout every time there's only bulk mail in the morning. i hate not having a single message. usually my dad makes up for it, but not all the time...especially when he's on holiday, like now!
i realised last night that at least every two blog entries, or more, have mention of something to do with my weight...gym, food, pounds, something or another. i am a little obsessed with that too i guess. but i think i'm feeling better now than i've done in months...i feel healthier, my clothes fit better, and for the first time in my life i think i have some definition in my arms. fyi, i hate my arms. have always hated them...if u have big arms, it makes u look bigger than u might be throughout the rest of your body. and i've always had big arms regardless of what stage i've been in. and even with all the exercise etc that i've been doing, i still think my arms are going to be bigger relative to the rest of my body, but at least they're getting toned, which i love.
i can't believe that i'm going to spend the rest of the hour left before my meeting and i'm going to sit right here. i feel tired today. not sure why. and for the last three days there's been a weird whirring in my ear. like there's a dragonfly stuck in my right ear or something. and today i had trouble eating. very odd cuz i never have trouble chowing down as quickly as possible. this morning, i didn't feel like finishing my bowl of cereal...i felt like it was taking too long to chew! then the same thing with lunch...got some salad at the university centre cafeteria and man i had trouble eating the whole plate. there wasn't even a lot! something's not right. and even though i just said in the above paragraph (cuz i can do paragraphs now...hehe) that i feel healthier, these are just little things that seem weird, and not like me. am i becoming a hypochondriac besides being someone obsessed with weight? (what's the word for that one mr. SR? i forget. and i couldn't find it when i googled cuz i'm just not patient enough right now. so do tell.)
i wonder if this new active lifestyle is only a phase...
refreshing, don't u think?
this template makes me smile...it's so cool, literally :) and in shades of my favourite colour. it was time to change the other one...and now that i'm using the html tags for paragraphing, it couldn't screw up my formatting...HA! this is how u cheat the system...or i'd like to think so anyway...hehe. it shouldn't have screwed up my paragraphing in the first place,
woke up really late today...shouldn't have, as had a whole load of laundry to do which'll now have to wait until later tonight or even tomorrow. also, i think it's high time i get myself outta guelph...an entire month here is suffocating...
i'll be on a 5-day streak if i go to the gym today...
gotta remember these things
thanks, E, for the reminder abt the counter. i thought abt resetting the counter
before i actually changed the template...then i changed it, i talked on the phone, and i forgot. but now it's done, thanks to you :)
why not?
i am shamelessly promoting other people's blogs when only a handful of people know of and visit mine! how ironic. but i like this one...she has no idea i'm writing about her blog, but this 14-yr-old's got spunk. i guess she reminds me of the way i wrote/write...she hails from rajshahi, b'desh. even the title of her blog's cool...
of the world and boiled eggs . how cute is that?
aaaanyway...i'm discovering more and more interesting blogs everyday, and for any of my readers who know how to read bangla,
here's something of interest.
on an oh-so-gloomy day...
i'm going to post the blog's link here that was posted as a comment. on the blog Me,Myself and Bangladesh there's mention of a report that Malaysian women find Bangladeshi men sexy! well, all i can say is you don't always appreciate what you have i guess...but where are these sexy B'deshi men!? I don't see any!
not much to say really...all i did today was housework: laundry, vacuuming, getting mad (in my head) with all the dishes that one of my housemate's left in the sink for about 4 days now. i can't make myself tell her to do the dishes...or just leave them elsewhere when she doesn't want to do them...there's pleeeeenty of counter space in the kitchen. i just don't know her well enough yet to say what i consider something confrontational...
gotta go to a stupid meeting about doing something social with the department. my department? social? yeah right! whatever. told my friend i'd show up, so i will...
i don't want to walk back home...
most embarassing ever...EVER!
u know how sometimes ppl want to know what the most embarassing moment of your life was? well, i just had mine. and in this blog i shall announce it to the world.
remember how i was being paranoid about the interview? well, i was paranoid, but i didn't do anything about that. i didn't research the agriculture industry in alberta. i knew nothing. abso-fucking-lutely nothing. this is probably the first and only time that i'll swear in the blog, so enjoy it. but yeah...they asked me a ton of 'knowledge' questions on the alberta agri-food industry and i knew NOTHING!!! i hadn't done my homework. i have about 50 reasons to rationalize why i didn't do my homework, one of the top ones being that i don't really want to do this job. but that's really not a reason...it's an excuse. about 3 questions in, i felt like saying, 'ok that's it, i'm not going to talk to you anymore because i really don't have anything intelligent to say. thanks very much for your time and patience with my stupidity.' but i didn't...and i didn't cry about it...i'm actually laughing about it, but it's a lesson learnt for life to never do an interview without prep regardless of whether i actually want the job or not. it doesn't pay to make a complete fool of yourself in front of ppl u don't know. at least i will never see these ppl in my life. i don't know what i would have done if something like this happened face to face...thank god for the phone. (total about turn from my last blog abt phone interviews, i guess, but whatever...)
on a more positive note, i lost 11 pounds since i last weighed myself, which was over 2 months ago. i need to lose 4 or 5 more to be where i think i should be, about 14 to 15 pounds to get to where i would like to be. there's a slight difference between the 'should' and the 'would like' but i don't have the energy to explain why.
time for me to send a hi-i'm-stupid-but-please-forgive-me email to the alberta folks.
meh
i have about 20 mins to kill before i head for the gym...what better time to blog? third day in a row that i'm going...so good of me. and yesterday for the first time ever in my life, i think a chocolate bar didn't taste too good. it was half a bounty bar...it was just waaaaaaaaay too sweet. might be because i haven't binged on chocolate for a while...i don't now...or just cuz i've changed my eating habits so much. i could never imagine that a chocolate bar wouldn't taste good...and i'm not really talking about bad chocolate here...i used to like bounties!
dr. d's grandma passed away. so my dear advisor is going down south for a while. i feel bad, but i was very awkward in front of him. i guess i remembered the time i broke down in front of him when my own grandmother passed away...it's just hard to deal with when people close to you pass away...
k signing off...
dyslexia and paranoia
i must be dyslexic to have posted that link as abam etc and not adam etc. now i feel kinda stupid. anyway, the real link doesn't seem to be working either so i'm not really sure what happened to that blog. i did fix the link though.
i have another phone interview tomorrow that i'm getting paranoid about. and it's not even a job i really want. i just don't like phone interviews. i don't really like interviews even...i get tongue tied and nervous and forget even the things i know well, wherein it appears that i know nothing. i asked the nice lady at HR at this place what the panel might ask and she said they ask a lot of the 'hard' questions, i.e. knowledge questions. i'm not particularly fond of those. and on the phone they can't see u and can't see your body language...and i don't even like the way i sound on the phone...oh man.
my sweetheart's in colorado having a blast with a bunch of his friends from dhaka. i spoke to all of them last night, which was fun as i've not met any of these folks...but they seem like a lively bunch. and nice, too. i wish i could have gone...but no US visa :(
at last i finished and submitted the lit review...
nuts and bolts
i figured out paragraphing by using html tags, but that still doesn't really solve my problem, it only gives me more work to do than i really want to on the blog.
also learnt that i have two entries (possibly more, since it seems so popular a notion in my life) with the title 'woe is me'. don't know why it really matters, but it bothers me.
i came across a very interesting blog of a US peace corps volunteer who was posted in bangladesh for a while. apparently, the peace corps' b'desh chapter was closed a couple of days ago and everyone was evacuated. he has some very interesting stuff to say, despite a lot of it being negative, it's a good read. and he seems sad to have left b'desh, the latest entry being from washington. the blog's called Say Yesh to Bangladesh which i thought was really funny :)
now i can go back to my one liner endings...woohoo!
what do u do with poor shopaholics?!
when i get the urge to shop, i can't stop. this wasn't planned! i was going to go to the mall to go to shoppers drug mart and get me some toothpaste, deodorant and advil. that's it. (i added two bars of terry's chocolate orange to that list while at shoppers of course!) but noooo...i have to get my ass into jacob connexion and others, and end up buying 2 pairs of trousers and a top...stuff i can't quite wear until summer anyway. and to think that all i've been thinking about buying for the last few weeks is a nice spring jacket...like a trench maybe. i don't see no coat!
how did i justify the purchases when this month has been so heavy on the pocket what with the hefty february credit card bill? well, i don't think i even bothered justifying the purchases this time. i had promised myself that i wouldn't buy clothes until i lost a bit of weight...and i couldn't quite hold the purchases for that cuz i did lose a bit of weight since coming back from dhaka. so just went ahead and flashed the visa...hehe. i think the spring jacket might have to wait till april........... :( is it a surprise that i love the shopaholic series? :D clearly, i recovered quite well from yesterday's super crisis situation.
worst ever
possibly because my hormones don't know where to go cuz my immune system is messed up. so they've taken it upon themselves to drive me absolutely up the wall. there's obviously no scientific proof of this, but i know. oh i know. and i don't have any chocolate. disaster. it's been the worst ever pms symptoms...worst ever mood swings...and apparently, the older u get the worse they get...not a good thing for me cuz they're just already so bad. and guess who suffers from my temper tantrums and my irrational emotional outbursts at such times? i do feel sorry for him sometimes.
need to get me a zen garden...
ramblings of the disorientated
i am by no means recovered, but this morning i was feeling better than i did the day before and the day before and the day before. now i'm sliding again.
yesterday all 640 muscles in my body hurt...it hurt to open an eyelid, it hurt to raise an eyebrow. being ms. supreme googler (since right now), i learnt that aches and pains, severe ones at that, are characteristic flu symptoms. not a good thing. having a temperature and feeling weak of course is another. over the last few days, except yesterday and today, i've been falling asleep at intervals of 2 hrs, for about an hour every time. naps are supposed to help u regain the energy. energy i feel like i'm losing every second i spend writing this blog.
i started work again on my big deadline of the week...the lit review. it sucks. and now i'm thinking that the stress of this chapter (it has to be the worst chapter to write in the entire thesis) is what helped me fall into the hands of the flu bug and other problems. i can't get over how horribly terrible this is :( and the flu is horribly terrible too.
...
no energy at all to write a proper entry...down with the flu :( i miss home!
so kill me why don't you?
i'm on medication that is supposed to make you sensitive to sunlight. but because we're amidst a canadian winter, i conveniently forgot that i even had to worry about that. and yesterday i was so excited that it was a lovely spring day...bright and SUNNY. so i went on my way, happy to have the sun on my face, only to come back home to absolutely splitting headaches, chills and what felt like a fever growing inside of me, and also with frequent feelings of wanting to throw up. i couldn't sleep all night and the headache took forever to go away, and after feeling like i was going to die a horrible painful and lonely death, i realised this morning that it was the dreaded sun that almost finished me off! one of the worst feelings ever, and to think today was the last day i had to be on the medication. not even feeling particularly well today, but don't feel like i'm dying.
feels like the end of a week
...and it's only thursday. well, it's cuz i don't have anymore meetings or anything and just enjoyed being home today. i was planning to go to the gym, but that didn't end up happening...it was too miserable a day. i think i woke up this morning around 5 because of the rain at my window...
anything new? well, i tried soy chips for the first time in my life. i don't like soy anything...and i think i bought these by accident cuz i thought they were rice chips. that's why u have to read the labels! what do i have a university degree for?! well, having said that, i actually liked the soy chips. what's even more interesting is that the bag of rice chips that i bought with it actually had a serving size of 8 chips (who eats just 8 chips?!) while the soy chips are TWENTY SIX CHIPS per serving, and more nutricious! i think i may have converted. i still hate tofu and soy milk i can't even stand the idea of, but i think when it comes to snacks, this is a good move away.
oh, america's next top model's new season started yesterday and it's going to be as fun as ever :) there's one girl who thinks she's all that and another really stunning girl from nigeria and one girl who is a racist... she didn't make the cut though into the final 13, but it was interesting to watch her get tongue tied in the mixed group when she kept deriding black people. makes u wonder why they let them in in the first place.
aaaaanyway time for me to sign off.
woe is me...
...so i shop. at la senza. because it was a kinda depressing day today...weather-wise and otherwise. too many physical and emotional problems to even talk about. so i won't.
E, how do you do paragraphs for your blog entries, and why can't i?!
and the anonymous person with the comments...i'd never heard of vicky pollard before...but thanks for the info...this time i know who u r at least...how are things? send me an email some time.
i was too tired to blog yesterday after the stressful phone interview and gym. and today i'm just not well :( so this will end here for now.
breaking news
so i'd already completed and posted my blog of the day. my friend's brother just sent me a link to this website, and after i saw it's contents, i had to post an emergency entry. in the inset u see a woman who is an actress...a
movie actress...
a film star...somebody in the media...somebody in the public eye...back in b'desh. i hadn't heard of her before...i don't know what sort of movies she does, and i don't care to know. my jaw dropped when i saw this photo and then i went in to help out the almost 22000 hits on the website to see what else was there on her gallery. as if we don't have enough to be embarassed about in the country. and THANK GOODNESS for the shallow (read, 'necessary') standards of beauty in hollywood!!! how appalling is this!?
maybe it wasn't such a good idea to post this picture on the blog. but i thought it was hilarious! :o) also, she does this whole i'm-constipated-get-me-to-a-toilet-right-away stance/look in a lot of the pix in the gallery. and since when do women in b'desh dress like this?! go figure.
and i'm a geek...
i just spend the entire afternoon at a conference where there were 3 presenters, and one of them i'd read (i should have read 2 out of 3 because both are important writers in my field). a couple of us students met the speakers in the morning over donuts and coffee. it was very exciting for me! like seeing a movie star would be...here were celebrity economists! it was a very interesting conference, too...right in the area of my interest of property rights and natural resources...so i had a very stimulating afternoon, but that also means that my brain's exhausted. which in turn means that i won't be able to do much in the way of my thesis this evening.
i have the dreaded phone interview tomorrow that i'm already quite nervous about...it's only the first stage interview, and i'd have to get through it to get to the second stage of interviews. i'm not particularly comfortable with formal phone conversations, and needless to say, i'm worried. also have to research more into the energy economics area and sound like i'm educated...
somehow, i can't make paragraphs anymore, regardless of which template i use!
randomness over rationality
i'm actually starting to see a difference in my pores. or it could just be my need to think that this biore pore perfect stuff works!
i've taken to going to the gym every other day...let's hope i can continue. so i have to walk to and from the gym, as there's no other way to get to campus, and on the way there i'm usually pretty brisk, but on the way back i take my sweet time. well, today there was a reason as it's an absolutely beautiful day...not too cold, and very bright and sunny...blue skies are where it's at!
i have not worn contacts since i got my year's supply. i still have to buy my own bottle of solution...still going with the stuff that the optometrist gave me.
have a phone interview on tuesday...and i know very little abt the area the job's in...so was trying to look up some stuff on energy economics this morning. it's interesting stuff...but i guess anything but my thesis these days is interesting.
what else? nothing really...contemplating whether i'm going to watch the oscars tonight.
spending spree
i needed some face wash. that's all. and i'd been thinking abt taking better care of my skin. i went to zellers (the canadian equivalent of walmart) to get that face wash, and i ended up buying the biore face wash, the biore astringent (i've never ever owned astringent before) and biore nose strips (my pores are getting gigantic...). it cost me like 30 bucks for those things, when i could have got my old face wash for $4.57!!! let's hope it's worth it at the end of the day. being the clutz that i am, i already spilled the astringent on the floor and got super pissed off at myself...
and i got my year's supply of contacts yesterday too...cost me a fortune...wasn't happy with the amount of money that i have to pay on my credit card bill next month or this month for that matter...february was crazy expensive...in general, i'm not particularly happy with anything these days...not work, not my love life, not anything....
i want to go home :(
and another month goes by
it's a beautiful day...very VERY cold, but it's lovely and bright and sunny. it's nice to get out of the house on days like this...even when you don't have a lot more to do other than hand in a couple of things. well, i did go to the gym...and then i went and bought a bag of chips...go figure. i guess i'm going through a little bit a rough patch which i believe only chocolate and chips can solve...that's definitely the talk of a person headed towards being food obsessed. actually, i probably already am obsessed with food, so that's really nothing new. e and i had a wonderful long discussion yesterday abt the issues i've been having, but strangely we didn't discuss how important food could be in this situation. she
did ask me to get her a bagel though (from guelph to kingston...)
one of my other really close friends suggested i download bengali natoks (drama series/soaps)
from the internet and watch them to keep myself occupied. i thought it was a brilliant idea!! so i downloaded. but i'm yet to watch any of the episodes...i didn't watch any of the series that were on while i was in dhaka so this'll be a good way to catch up. my cousin in dhaka swears by one of the series...he couldn't even get me to watch one episode though, cuz i kept forgetting what night the show was on...the inset is a poster of the show's characters...i'm excited abt starting my new routine :)
aaanyway, that's it for now. my contacts are giving me a headache...
