bored outta my mind
and honestly, that's where i could end this blog, just with the subject. i've been sitting at this computer in the dept lab for over an hour for really no reason. i've checked my email (all three/four accounts that i use) about 3 times each or more, and i've chatted on msn for no particular reason either. well, i guess most of the time that u're chatting on msn, u don't have any particular reason. but the email thing is probably more of a problem...i'm obsessive compulsive about checking my email. i don't fail to pout every time there's only bulk mail in the morning. i hate not having a single message. usually my dad makes up for it, but not all the time...especially when he's on holiday, like now!
i realised last night that at least every two blog entries, or more, have mention of something to do with my weight...gym, food, pounds, something or another. i am a little obsessed with that too i guess. but i think i'm feeling better now than i've done in months...i feel healthier, my clothes fit better, and for the first time in my life i think i have some definition in my arms. fyi, i hate my arms. have always hated them...if u have big arms, it makes u look bigger than u might be throughout the rest of your body. and i've always had big arms regardless of what stage i've been in. and even with all the exercise etc that i've been doing, i still think my arms are going to be bigger relative to the rest of my body, but at least they're getting toned, which i love.
i can't believe that i'm going to spend the rest of the hour left before my meeting and i'm going to sit right here. i feel tired today. not sure why. and for the last three days there's been a weird whirring in my ear. like there's a dragonfly stuck in my right ear or something. and today i had trouble eating. very odd cuz i never have trouble chowing down as quickly as possible. this morning, i didn't feel like finishing my bowl of cereal...i felt like it was taking too long to chew! then the same thing with lunch...got some salad at the university centre cafeteria and man i had trouble eating the whole plate. there wasn't even a lot! something's not right. and even though i just said in the above paragraph (cuz i can do paragraphs now...hehe) that i feel healthier, these are just little things that seem weird, and not like me. am i becoming a hypochondriac besides being someone obsessed with weight? (what's the word for that one mr. SR? i forget. and i couldn't find it when i googled cuz i'm just not patient enough right now. so do tell.)
i wonder if this new active lifestyle is only a phase...
3 Comments:
Hi ,
Hmmm this has me stumped....well I didn’t really think you were talking about medical terms such as anorexia or bulimia but maybe, and I don't think your talking OCDs either, particularly Body Dysmorphia...OK now you've got me obsessing over the word/phrase and thinking about my butt too!
Ok… eeny, meeny, miney mo catch a tiger by its toe.., or more crudely, ip dip dog shit, which word is it.....? (said in the style of Parker from Thunderbirds)..."Are you intimatin' anorexia me lady?"
OK question back for you, why hasn't anyone seemingly used the words "koshto kathino/kat-thinno" (sp?) on the web?
no, it's not anorexia...it's a word u used in an email, and that's why i thought maybe u'd remember.
koshto kathinno is spelt with one t and two ns when u're transliterating...and surprisingly it is there on the web! google it :p i guess it's also used in a more metaphorical sense in a couple of sites...shamajik koshto kathinno...i think it's actually a song!
Oh I know "Pocrescophobia" (a.k.a. Obesophobia) the fear of becoming a "mota aloo".
Cheers for the KK spelling
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