what's said with the eyes
when i was first learning how to swim, an incident happened (small and insignificant, it would seem to many) that i haven't thought about in years. i think i was 9 or 10 years old. i was swimming away, and may i remind you that i had just started learning. this 'celebrity' (this woman who is still on tv in b'desh...she's quite famous actually, and has been part of the entertainment biz in bangladesh forever) shows up at the place, watches me swim, laughs, and then asks one of the swim trainers why i swam that way. and that obviously wasn't a nice or proper or appropriate or good or the right way to swim. then she gave me a look and walked away with a snicker. hey, i was a fat kid...it's a miracle i was floating at all.
that incident obviously had some impact on me to still remember it. the reason i thought of it: today at the gym, one of the gym staff gave me a 'look' - a look that said, that's no way to do crunches. she didn't say anything, it was a passing glance, no smile, nothing...it was just a look. a condescending one at that. just like that lady years ago, only not accompanied with any snide remarks or snickers (unless she made them to the other gym staff hanging around, who she was talking to, out of my earshot). am i just maybe making too much of it?
the gym is absolutely empty these days. it was so empty yesterday that i could hear the mechanical noises from the elliptical machine, which are usually overpowered by the fans. i guess the fans were off yesterday or something. good thing is that it's now less stinky (except when people fart) and also cooler. on the other hand, each and every person is more noticeable (i think there were maybe 5 ppl today in total) and thus susceptible to looks such as the aforementioned from gym staff. not fun. i'd like to go back to being inconspicuous.
america's next top model on tonight...gonna miss Em and how we made fun of everyone.
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