little things that matter

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ok, ok, snakeskin...i looked closer after the mention that it wasn't croc skin, and it isn't...as u know, the heels weren't the main focus of the post :p

i'm really quite far away from even touching the ball at the gym. maybe when i'm a little bit more fit, and am a little more sure of my coordination, i'll give it a shot. i've looked at lots of things on the web, but i just don't want to get on the ball. i think about it rolling out from under me and then me falling on my bum and hurting myself, or falling on my face, or something worse. the pessimist that i am, it'll take me a while to get over this (possibly) irrational fear of losing balance...something i hate doing even in life in general. to have to go thru a literal loss of balance cuz of an exercise ball isn't going to do any good for me. maybe some day i'll get there...

as for the whole modesty issue at the gym, i think i might be a little too modest! i wear clothes i wear around the house. baggy tshirts, track pants...always long pants, never shorts or anything. i don't know if i actually posted abt this. it's cuz i don't think i need to look good at the gym...it's ok if i look sloppy, nobody's looking at me, and i'm there to simply work out not make friends. except for the days when i meet the cutest guy in my department at the gym and have to talk to him, and i'm wearing my ridiculous pink tie-dye t-shirt which i never wear anyway. that's when i slap my forehead and think, what was i thinking?!

my computer's a piece of shit. internet explorer always has errors and shuts down, and lose my blogs in mid-entry. thank goodness for the'Recover post' thingie on this! i'd be cursing a lot more if i had to rewrite everything.

today's task is to deal with my data. after the committee meeting, as i said, tackling the data and deciding what i want to do with my variables and how i'm going to test my hypotheses etc. are top on the agenda. this might be another thing way way above the stability ball i'm afraid of. i just don't know if i can say anything intelligent abt my data cuz i just don't know how it's done. i've had loads of suggestions from my advisors and the committee, but they want me to decide along which angles i want to go, and i'd rather they just told me what to do. i know that's taking the easy way out and cutting corners and what not, but i don't want to do it. but i guess i have to.

it's close to noon, and all i've done is opened the excel file.

posted by pebblesia @ 11:31 AM