so i cooked this yummy beef and potato curry the other day, and just now finished off the left overs for lunch. also vacuumed the living room etc (since i'm living here might as well help out with some of the chores i figured, even though i'm never asked to do anything), ran the dishwasher (phew, how difficult that was ;)), tidied up some stuff and re-orged my room a little. amazing how much time these little things can take up, and amazing how you want to do all these things when you're really supposed to be working.i did do a little bit of work today trying to focus on a little verbal presentation that i have to make for my committee on thursday. basically it needs to be somewhat of a sales pitch to convince my committee that i'm ready to leave for dhaka, that i've got all my arsenal and that they can trust me to complete the task at hand once i'm in b'desh. whether they can actually do that is another issue of course, as i can totally see myself immersed in dinner invitations, catching up with friends and family, and just in general hanging out at whatever's new and happening in ze city right now. no...no...that's not true...i'll have to work...as i'll have to get my degree, right? i'm in half a mind to just drop everything and run away...a year in the masters program isn't all that much, is it? is it really too late to drop now that i've completed all my coursework and only really have my thesis to complete for my degree??my advisors are being an incessant pain in the butt. i mean, constructive criticism is fine, but hardly ever do i hear anything encouraging. i got an email today with an obligatory 'you're doing fine; keep it up', which meant nothing, NOTHING to me. maybe that's the problem. maybe, everytime they try to say something positive, i somehow end up negating it...or it just seems pretentious to me like this little nothing email. why do i do that?! i know i'm going to spend the next 48+ hours just fretting about this meeting...couple of meetings to attend at uni thursday actually...and will only be able to relax once thursday's done and over with. can only resort to counting days to go to bangladesh only to avoid my advisors, even though i love the wonderful, albeit expensive toronto life.will i ever finish my 'further studies'? :
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